The Boys of the Past

So, recently I had a craving for old stories. Unfortunately, none of my old high school friends are near me to be able to chat and gossip about the times we laughed and the times we cried, so I did it alone on my couch. Pulling out my diaries made me slightly nervous. Would I remember everything I had wrote about? Would I be embarrassed by my own memories? I can tell you right now, younger me, was pretty awesome. Boy crazy, but awesome.

But I guess that is what brought me to where I am today. All of the boys who have come and gone. All of the young guys who tore at my heart and made me fall for them, with no intention of catching me on the way down.

To a few of the boys I've encountered in my life, Thank you. For being the acception to the rule, and for making sure that even though you knew that I didn't like you in that way, you still stuck around just to be that friend I needed when the other jerks pushed me down.

Elementary school crushes were what started this whole diary nonsense. Thank you to the boy who's hand I almost held in fifth grade during our reading circle time. You were my first real crush, and the first and only boy who asked me to "go steady with you." I can't even tell you how adorable it is to say that right now.

For all the boys that I "loved" in middle school, thank you for teaching me how to interact with the opposite sex. Thank you for talking to me for HOURS on AOL instant messenger, and for teaching me what butterflies feel like. Thank you for being my very first boyfriend even if it lasted only three weeks, and then my boyfriend of only 2 days too. Thank you for not trying to do anything with me, because obviously I was WAY too innocent for that. I have learned from all of the guys who hurt me, and made me think I wasn't "cute" or "hot" or "sexy." I know now, that at the awkward age of 13, no one is hot or sexy. Thanks to the guys who I thought were "just my friends" who liked me. If I wasn't so caught up in the "popular boys" and actually gave you guys a chance, i might have had some great relationships in my teen years.

To the boys in high school who never liked me back, its okay. I forgive most of you. I wasn't ready for a relationship any way, and I know that now. I am so sorry to the guy I turned down for prom sophomore year, it wasn't exactly because of you, I was just so nervous to even think about going on a date. I was 16 and so completely out of my element with boys that I couldn't say yes to you, even if we both knew we were going as just friends. My confidence was so low, that I can tell you with 100% certainty, you weren't the reason I said no, I was. To all the guys that liked me, and I didn't like you back, I'm so sorry. The main reason is probably because I didn't know you liked me, or I was just too blind to see it. I didn't look for the guys who liked me, I found the ones who thought of me as just a "sweet girl" who was meant to be a friend and nothing more. To the boy who asked me to prom while i was sitting in my PJs in my car, I promise you I would have said yes if I hadn't already been asked the night before, and truthfully I wanted to go with you over the guy who asked me first. I don't think I ever told you that. To the guy who asked me to prom and then dumped me as a date before the dance, I'm sorry about that whole thing. I really, truly didn't know that you actually liked me, liked me. If I had known that I wouldn't have been so mean, and I would have said no to being your prom date.

To the one boy in high school who led me on for a full year, I still hate you. I guess I still hate you because every single time you came around I thought, "maybe, just maybe he actually does like me." You suck for being so flirtatious with me. I thought maybe this guy who calls me babe, talks to me for hours, comes by to bring me ice cream when I'm sad because of stupid leadership elections, actually likes me. But come to find out, it was just a game you liked to play with innocent girls like me, who gave you attention to make your ego that much bigger. Little did I know you were just like every other guy, telling me I'm friend material but not girlfriend material. Well guess what? I've been in a committed relationship for 3 years. So who's not girlfriend material now? And you know what else? Innocence slips away with time. You can read whatever you want into that.

And as my final thank you, thank you to Andrew. For being the acception to any rule I had thought was made. Thank you for actually seeing me like no one else had seen me. Thank you for taking a step and asking me on a date, my very first REAL date. Thank you for being the guy who caught me for once. I don't know where I would be with out you today. Thank you for loving me, for caring for me, for putting up with me. I love you with all of my heart, and I guess I finally realized that when you're not looking for someone, you find someone.

I guess now all I can do is sit back and laugh about the boys who came and went. I guess I wish I could talk to my 13 year old self, or my 17 year old self, and tell me, to stop writing about the boys who broke my heart! But I realize that the subject of boys was the only thing I found worthy enough of writing down onto paper, because saying all of the stuff out loud, was too hard. Writing to myself was something that made me feel better and made my life easier to live. I really recommend writing in a journal. I guess a lot of people use online blogs like this as their journals, and thats all amazing. But when you have a daughter, or a son, buy him or her a diary. And have them write in it every night. When they are 21 years old and are about to graduate college, they will thank you. Because right now, I wouldn't want to be doing anything else but reading my diaries from 1998-2008.

NOVEMBER ALREADY?

I seriously cannot believe that it is already November 14th.
I guess when I woke up this morning it hit me. I have only a few more weeks until the end of this quarter and then only 2 more quarters left of my Undergraduate college career. And then it got me thinking, what am I going to do after I graduate? Live my life bored in my apartment? No way. I have to find something productive to do with my life. But am I ready for a full time job? No way. Not unless it is the dream job I have in mind... Which I do not think is going to happen any time soon.
I need to move.
I need a change.
I need more time.

Tonight

Tonight is the night where 
sparks fly 

Tonight is the night we are fearless

Tonight is the night that will leave us enchanted

Tonight we will hear our song, 

dance around to a love story, 

and find ourselves fifteen again. 

Tonight is the night we will be in the midst of a superstar. 

Miss Taylor Swift, tonight is Ours.

The Writing Process

I just realized my writing process is really screwed up. I need a better way to continue to write without getting distracted. See, I want my future novel or novels to encompass a variety of audience members. I don't want just one group of people to adore my work the way I adore the works of other authors. I know its not easy to become a writer, and that it takes so much to actually create a work of literature, but I want it so badly. I want someone to pick up my book at night, and get pulled into each word, each sentence, each paragraph. I want every page to be an adventure, and when the book is finally over, I want each and every person to miss the characters within the story. I want them to adore the people I create, and I want them to understand the emotions each and every character faces. If I could predict which one of my many stories would be my crowning moment, I would do it. But I am fully aware that my writing process needs some extreme depth and extreme critique. If you have gotten fairly decent grades in any writing class, or you have a love for literature, please let me know. I need an editor, someone who believes in my abilities, and someone who is willing to take the plunge with me. I'm ready to explore my creative writing talents, but I cannot do it alone.

Thirteen Reasons Why

So, I'm currently reading a little bit of Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher every night and I just cannot put it down. If I didn't have to get up early every morning for work or my internship, man oh man, would I be reading it every second. I know that Selena Gomez has been chosen for the lead role of Hannah, but I wanted to cast my own group of teen starts that I think would fit each character :) here's my ideas -

Characters I still need to cast: Alex Standall; Ryan Shaver.
Some characters have honorable mentions, there are a lot of great actors and actresses out there!

Selena Gomez - Hannah Baker 
It is already said that Selena has agreed to do this movie as Hannah. I'm going to keep her in this spot because I feel it was a great decision on the casting director's part as well as on Selena's part for taking up a movie role like this. It is a break from her disney days, into something darker, and more emotional. Her fans will adore her in this film.

Max Thieriot- Clay Jensen
Max was featured in movies such as Nancy Drew, Chloe, Jumper, and My Soul to Take. I believe his acting ability to be strong enough to handle this type of emotional character. I have to admit, casting Clay was probably the hardest out of all characters. I feel like Max's exterior physical feature capture something different than a lot of the other young male stars I considered. Although, I wouldn't be opposed to an introduction of a completely original male lead, someone who is completely unknown, as long as he can bring that kindess to Clay's character.

Malese Jow - Jessica Davis 
Malese is beautiful, and as Hannah states in the book, she is much prettier than her. I do have to say Malese and Selena both have different qualities of beauty, they are both stunning. But Malese does have a very special ethnic qualities that provide a certain type of mystery and seduction. I just hope that she can pull off the difficult task of getting taken advantage of by a boy. She has taken on a role in The Vampire Diaries, and I think she could complete the role of Jessica beautifully.

Steven R. McQueen - Justin Foley 
You may recognize Steven as Jeremy Gilbert on The Vampire Diaries, but he's more than just that. To me, Steven has proven himself as a very special type of actor. His ability to provide the cast of Vampire Diaries with someone innocent and young, but still intelligent and romantic gives the viewers a breath of fresh air! He would be perfection in the interactions between Hannah and Justin, the innocence in their relationship, his betrayal, and the terrible event they both witness.

Katie Cassidy - Courtney Crimsen
I really liked Katie in 7th Heaven, but I'm not sure the depth of her acting skills. She has been on Gossip Girl and Melrose place, so her resume is amazing. Hopefully she could pull off a character as nice as Courtney can be, and also as mean as she can be.

Aaron Johnson - Tyler Down
Aaron was seen in movies such as The Illusionist, Kick-Ass, and Nowhere Boy. I think his look is perfection for the creepy character of Tyler. I pictured Tyler to be a little rugged, with longer hair and physical depth. I think Aaron has the acting ability to provide Tyler with that sense of disgusting terror necessary for a peeping tom.

Aly Michalka - Jenny Kurtz
Aly is beautiful, and young. She could be a cheerleader, in fact isn't she on a show where she plays a cheerleader?? I hope that she can provide Jenny with the dynamic of trying to be Hannah's friend and also causing something terrible to happen. I would need to see her and Selena interact, but I have faith in miss Aly.

Dev Patel - Zach Dempsey
When I saw Dev's picture online it occurred to me how much I loved him in Slumdog Millionaire. This  19 year old has such great acting abilities I feel like he could bring on a whole new level to Zach. I don't think Zach has that big of a role in Hannah's life, but he does make a lot of appearances, and I feel like Dev could be a perfect best friend character. Plus, he's extremely attractive and provides the film with a little diversity.

Carter Jenkins - Bryce Walker 
Coming across Carter's photo just made me literally clap my hands. His whole persona is just oozing Bryce. He is attractive, dark, mysterious, hot, but dangerous. He could pull of the difficult role of Bryce. His character may be unbelievably disgusting and horrible, but I really think Carter could pull this off.

William Moseley - Marcus Cooley 
William, ah what a beautiful actor. You and I both know him as Peter from the "Narnia" films, but don't you think he deserves another role after sequel after sequel? I know I do. I think he would be great as Marcus, the cute, attractive, class clown, funny man. Even though he thinks he can get away with making moves on Jenna, he's still cute, and she still goes out with him, so this boy has to be pretty attractive. William can hold onto a strong male role, and I believe he's proven himself in the "Narnia" films, but he needs a change, Marcus could be that great role change.

Writing a Novel.

Here's a sneak peak at something I've been working on, please leave feedback, because it is a work in progress.

Introduction:

It’s never about whether you’re ready or not. The game of hide and seek fools children into thinking that they will receive warnings for things coming next. It doesn’t work that way in life. If it did a lot of people would probably object. “Ready or not? I’m not ready.” They would say, but you can’t stop these things, you can’t actually have a caution sign at every obstacle you face in your life. Obstacles will come, and they will challenge you, and hopefully they will make you stronger. So the next time you’re playing hide and seek, don’t give your hiders an extra warning. You’re coming to find them whether they like it or not, whether they are up for the challenge or not, whether they are ready or in my case, not.

“I do not want to come with you.” I gasped for air as a tear rolled down my cheek. “I have always regretted saying that I would think about it when the truth is I had made up my mind way before you even asked.” His eyes hurt me; two crystal blue pools of sharp glass cutting every inch of my body. His tan complexion drove my senses wild, but I was not going to lose everything to him again, I’d done it once, and that was already enough. “You broke me. I am like this because of you. And I can't stand here and pretend that everything is okay when every day I become more and more miserable.”

He didn’t even respond. One tear rolled down his cheek. By this time I was bawling. That one tear was all the words I needed to hear. That one tear, combined a whole collection of emotions. The emotions he refused to share with me, the thoughts I knew he was thinking, all came out. In that one tear, my whole vision became blinded as his tall frame crumbled before me.

The words echoed in my mind, “ready or not…” I shuddered as a steady breeze rustled the nearby trees. My brown hair was picked up by the soft wind; it tangled and stuck to my tear stained cheeks. I bent down to see the strongest man I had ever come to love collapse before me. I had taken his world and turned it upside down, and then shook it up and down. The sight of us crouched on the cold cement sidewalk was a picture that could break anyone’s heart.

His watery eyes stared into mine as I struggled to catch my breath. It wasn’t going to be easy to stop my eyes from continuing to waterfall onto my cheeks, but I knew it was the only way I could end this for good. His stare made me want to do so many different things, so I avoided his gaze, stood up, allowing my stiletto heels to click onto the ground. I took exactly four steps away from him, changing my future forever. I shed one last tear and quickly brushed it from my cheek. I turned back to face him, struggling to hide all emotion. I extended my hand out to him, and as he reached for it, I let the 3 karat diamond engagement ring fall into his palm. The pain I could see in his eyes made my heart explode, but I had to do this. I had to. Ready or not, this was the only way to become ready, if I hadn’t been prepared enough. I turned back around, away from him, and took those same four steps, but instead of facing him again, I took a fifth step, and by the time I realized it, I was over 400 steps away. I got into my car, and drove.

Ready or not, here I come.

Day 1: 

“Leanne,” my eyes were glued to the computer screen. The blurred vision of the letters typed out onto the blank word document made my senses ache. I had been staring at the same four words for approximately 20 minutes.

“It’s time for you to go home,” Frank was standing around the corner of my desk. He shook his head and handed me a stack of papers. “New York?” His questioning tone made me realize that there was an assignment I had to complete. I nodded, sending my arm across my desk and toward the papers.

“What time is the flight?” my voice was jagged, dreary, and unemotional. His eyebrows came down to the center of his forehead. They almost touched as he gently grabbed my arm.

“Are you sure you’re,” he paused, “Are you sure you want to take this trip? Why don’t you just take some time off?” His expression told me that he was not truly worried about me, but more worried about the job. Frank cared, but only about his company.

“Frank, I will be okay.” I started rustling through the stack of papers he handed to me. There were ten forms I needed to fill out before the conference and I knew that these were not average company policy sheets. They took depth and creativity, something I was lacking, but to keep the company together, I had to hold it together.

I could feel his gaze continue to stare at the top of my head. “Is there anything else I can help you with Frank?” the sound of my voice was foreign to my ears. He smiled with sadness shining through his entire stare. As he shook his head, I could feel the building wash over with silence. Eighty percent of the staff had already gone home and those who were left were engulfed in some sort of online conference. I knew none of them were paying attention to the conversation I was struggling to end. I stood up out of my chair, pulling my bag onto the desk. I rustled through to find my keys. Gathering the stack of papers he had just handed me, I pulled out a water bottle. Frank winced as he saw the engraving on the side. “Bridal Boutique” was written in calligraphy. It didn’t occur to me that even my supervisor would have the same reaction as I previously had only 8 hours ago. How did every day things obtain so much power over our emotions? I brushed off his concern and smiled unsure of what to do or say next.

“Well, if that is all you need from me, I think I will be going home for the night. May I ask what time my flight leaves tomorrow?” I straightened out my blazer trying to keep my hands busy. I did not want to pick up the water bottle; I did not want to pull attention to it again. I kept thinking to myself, maybe I should just leave it here, but that could be worse, then everyone will see it. Frank just would not leave, his concern made me uncomfortable but I knew he was just being the awkward man who somehow obtained the highest position in the company.

“The company car will pick you up at 6:45 tomorrow morning. Do you want them to come to your new place of residence? If you do I will need that address,” he lost confidence at the end of his sentence. I pulled a sticky note from the side of my computer monitor. Keeping them there always seemed the best for me, right at the perfect level to grasp. Any notes I had to leave for myself were always seen. I quickly wrote down an address, an apartment, forty-five blocks from the office building. I knew it was far enough away from downtown that no one, would ever think to come visit me, without notice.

I handed him the note and quickly picked up the water bottle throwing it under my arm. Some water spilled out onto the floor, as I slammed the nozzle shut. Frank uncomfortably turned toward his office door, signaling a wave that only made it half way. His had fallen down to his side as his back finally turned to me. My heels clicked on the cement floor as I made my way to the elevator. It was 9:30 at night and I knew that there was no chance in the world I would run into anyone at this hour. People seemed to leave the office around 8 or even 10, but in between those two hours, people seemed glued to the work they were completing. I knew this because, I paused at the thought. It was our time in the office, his and mine. I shook off the memories as I exited at the first story. Walking out toward the curb I raised my hand to hail a taxi. Leaving my car at the company garage was the best idea for the weekend. My apartment parking was nowhere near as safe as the company lot. I sat in the back of the taxi, told the driver my address. He drove, I closed my eyes. He stopped at a red light; I fiddled with the only ring left on my hand. He pulled over to let me out, I handed him the money. He drove away, I unlocked the apartment door. The yellow taxi disappeared down the street; I crumbled to the floor, my apartment door slamming behind me. Tears filled my eyes pouring out all over my face. I sobbed even when there were no more tears left.  It was over. And it taken a full day of work to realize that it was only 15 hours ago that it was over. The end had happened. Was I ready for this? 

Adele 21

When I was younger I LOVED to listen to music while I fell asleep. It really calmed me down and made my dreams amazing. I don't know when I stopped doing this, but recently I bought Adele's new album, 21, because I had already fallen in love with a few of the songs, and I can't tell you how amazing it is to fall asleep to these songs. I mean of course listening to them awake is perfection as well, but I'm telling you, if you need an album to put as your sleep mix, this one is it. The songs have a retro, vintage feel, and even the upbeat songs are still soft enough to fall asleep to. It's not an album that I would dance to at the club, its much more emotional and meaningful. 

Track List, in order of my favorites right now :)

1. Turning Tables
2. Someone Like You
3. Rumor Has It 
4. Rolling In The Deep
5. Set Fire To The Rain
6. I Found A Boy
7. One And Only
8. Hiding My Heart
9. Don't You Remember
10. I'll Be Waiting
11. He Won't Go 
12. Take It All
13. If It Hadn't Been For Love
14. Lovesong

Plus there are Live Acoustic versions of Someone Like You, Turing Tables, and Don't You Remember.

I thought it was going to be really easy to order her songs from what I like the most to what I don't like but truthfully I like all of the songs, and right now the top 5 almost top 6 I have memorized. I already know all of the choruses for each song, so I'm telling you, this Album is the one to get. Plus the lyrics are just mesmerizing!

Love,

Kayla

Taylor Swift

I sit here tonight thinking about this new contest 107.9 The End just announced. A chance to work for Taylor Swift. I don't know any details, or any interesting facts about the contest, just that it involves Taylor, and that it will happen sometime soon. I sat back and watched the hundreds of facebook comments, twitter replies, and videos spring up, asking for the amazing opportunity to meet and work for an amazing role model and it hit me. There are so many wonderful, amazing people who deserve to have their dreams come true. 

I guess I sat back and thought about how excited I would be if I received that opportunity, but then again, I would strongly want to give it to someone else. 

If I strive to make other people's life's better, then I cannot be selfish. I have to give a lot, without expecting to get anything in return. I have to allow others to find their happiness, in order to find my own. 

I'm going to try to win this contest, but not for myself, for someone else. And if out of some miracle I do win, I will ask if there is any way I could give it away, to someone much more deserving. 

I'm only one person in this huge world, but I will not allow my own desires to blind me from seeing how amazing this experience would be for a young girl of 13. If I was allowed to meet and work for my favorite artist at 13, my whole life would be different. 

One act of kindness at a time, I will make this world a much better place. 

Twenty One

Yup, that's right. I am 21 years old. I would be lying if I said I was actually happy to be 21. I remember my 16th birthday wishing I was older. Wishing that time would go by faster so I could finally live on my own and be my own individual person without the chains of my parents holding me down. And now I'm facing the year that I wanted to come so badly, and you know what? I wish I was 16 again. Being faced with the challenges I have to overcome today is not as fun as deciding what to wear in the morning to impress that senior boy I had a crush on. There are so many different life altering choices that I will soon have to make that it really scares me. Time really goes by too fast, and I wish that when I heard people say this when I was younger, I would have listened. Because it's true. Time goes by way too fast, and you cannot ask for it to be paused, or stopped. You just have to go with the flow and try to remember to take deep breaths. I am no expert on growing up, because I know I still have a lot of growing up to do. People always ask what would you tell your 16 year old self now, if you could? And all I can think of is time goes by way too fast, so be thankful for the time you're living. I do not want to waste any of the precious time I have. I am young still, but in a way, I am getting older every second of the day. Obstacles that I overcome and decisions that I make really improve my ability to appreciate life and every blessing I have. I want to inspire, and I want to teach. I want to give younger girls, and girls my own age, maybe even older, something to be happy about. Because there is no one else on this planet who is you. You are it. You're the one person who can change a life, your own life. So breath deep, and buckle up, because time goes by so fast, that in a blink of an eye, you'll go from being 16 years old wishing you were 21 to 21 years old wishing you were 16.

Concerts!

AMAZING FANTASTIC AWESOME NEWS. 

REALLY, this is beyond perfection.

So, one of my new years resolutions, on top of eating better, losing weight, doing well in my classes, and being an overall better person, is to go see more concerts! And guess what!? I am GOING TO SEE MORE CONCERTS! 

YAY YAY YAY! cheer for me =))

Alright so, I'm going to see....

 At the Dixon May Fair! <3 I mean who would have thought that Selena Gomez and The Scene would be at the Dixon May Fair of all places?! I'm so excited, PLUS Makenna and Missy are coming with me :)) makes it 10 times better <3

THEN in September, Missy & I are going to see TAYLOR SWIFT! at Arco =) <3 can you say "dream come true" 20 times fast? I can now that I have the ticket!

I just can't help but be excited!

Another New Years wish i have that i hope comes true is visiting LA sometime this year. Either go to Disneyland and explore LA at the same time, or just do LA for a week or so. I love the city life and I wanna live it sometime soon!
<3

This year is working out to be pretty damn amazing <3!

My Beautiful Kitties

First of all, I need more time. Can anyone tell me how to make more time?

Got home from Vegas last night at midnight or so, and seriously fell into a sleep coma. It was so nice to see Andrew after a few days and come back to my BEAUTIFUL kittens. 

They make me smile all the time. Lillian is a beautiful tough athlete, and Becka (aka BooBoos) is my delicate little thing. They are the best things to come home to. 

The both make me happy to be a pet owner, and happy to be a mommy :) You really have no idea how happy pets can make people. I believe everyone needs a pet to call their own. Whether its a dog, or a cat, or a fish, or a bird, or any reptile. Everyone needs a friend to turn to, no matter what. They don't judge you, they don't care how you look, all they want is some love. And that is exactly what we can give them. Pretty much i'm saying GO ADOPT A PET, or come visit mine.

Post Number One

This is an epic moment.


I am posting my FIRST, number one, numero uno, blog post. I can tell you right now that this is not the time to be posting my first blog. It is... 1:08am and I just finished writing a paper for one of my communication classes. Here goes my rant. I had 2 EXAMS AND 1 PAPER due all in 3 days. These exams were not easy.

PLUS I have a bowling tournament this weekend.  Yes, I am a proud member of the UC Davis Varsity Women's Bowling Team.

That's us!

Now our next tournament is in VEGAS, but it still takes 10 hours to get there, and we have to wake up really early to bowl all day long. Lets just say collegiate bowling tournaments are like bowling marathons, in addition to standing for longer than 5 hours a day, with less than 5 hours of sleep. All mixed together in one person, who is expected to bowl astronomically well for the sake of his/her teammates. But we all have a great time together :) because bowling is an awesome SPORT. (I should mention I had a facebook debate with some guy I do not even know, nor do I really want to know about how bowling IS a true sport. Did I win? Yeah, I think so.)  

What else can I say before this night ends?

How about I mention how much I miss my best friend? :( She's away in Germany/Spain for school. And it just makes me so sad that she isn't in the same state, long enough the same country. I know that she is living her dreams, and following her heart, but I just miss high school. I want to be able to hang out on the couch watching Gilmore Girls, eating food, and just talking about life.

Now most people know me for quoting really young, and teenage-like music, but I just can't even explain how this song explains the relationship Alli and I have. So here we go, here is the song that I can't help but think of her when I listen to it!

Alli, if you read this, I LOVE YOU! & I MISS YOU! & i'm keeping up on our books for when i come visit you <3 

I think I have to mention GILMORE GIRLS again. If you haven't seen this show, you're missing out. Click that link, there are free episodes online. New ones are put up a lot. It is a feel good, amazing pop culture reference show that makes your mind spin because of how fast the dialogue is. Just watch it. You'll be amazed.

Loreli and Rory, my two official TV hero's. 

I think my next blog post will incorporate my superstar loves. That's gotta be something interesting in my life :) 

I also want to make sure I write down my top 100 goals, in no particular order of course. Hopefully, I'll have accomplished some of them in the next year, wish me luck!

This is a really long first blog post :)

Anyway, I should probably say goodnight, and actually go get some sleep tonight. I'll probably get about 5 hours of sleep, well at least it's something! 

<3 Goodnight everyone!